This Does Not Let Me Sleep

I know it's gunna go at some point, but I can't get myself out of this depressive state right now. there's nothing I feel attached to or looking for or forward to in my mind. I'd love to illustrate and only but I realize I won't be able to illustrate everything I've got in my head. I even cry while watching comedies. freaking mood swings, I don't even know what to think about.