The heart is the body's strongest muscle.

Well, trying to hold on to the promise of 'a picture a day and not less than that' here. This is a rough sketch from my sketchbook I made while watching the film "Life Before Her Eyes", [ all about how seriously ephemeral our existence is]. But the drawing is not about that. Since I'm all over the great Gothic Revival and Poe these days, the sketch portraits the sexy barber.

I know it's gunna go at some point, but I can't get myself out of this depressive state right now. there's nothing I feel attached to or looking for or forward to in my mind. I'd love to illustrate and only but I realize I won't be able to illustrate everything I've got in my head. I even cry while watching comedies. freaking mood swings, I don't even know what to think about.

I could not fall asleep last night no matter what I tried to do with myself ( like sketching, counting dragons, taking pills, building a noise-protective fortress castle out of my pillows over my head), but on the other hand I nearly managed to figure out the final story line for the music video I had got myself into making of. The pin-through idea is : objects and subjects disappearing and reappearing and transforming into different things -where the love goes, I think that's what they're singing about there.

I used to feel incredibly worried about this job and actually got stuck, had a few days of depressive obsessions and monomaniac ideas but finally settling down with the concepts now and think it's going to be a good practice in illustration and animation for me and they gave me a complete freedom of choice in anything I'm going to do as well.

I feel like drawing for some storyboards, but I'm ridiculously tired from all the things that took place this weekend and will see how long I'm going to last till I crash out.

In other, non drawing related news,- today I received one of the most surprisingly wicked compliments I've ever heard- I sat down by Jamie in the canteen and there was a 'fabulous' mag or something like that kind of periodical on the table and I looked through it saying I was looking for some pictures of beautiful people to draw and Jamie said I should take a mirror and draw. 

And, hooray, my orchard drawing board in A2 arrived today in the morning and I'm over the moon about that, and there's also no excuses possible to not to draw every other minute of my life full of this light sadness of mine. Well, I have been feeling complete and existing in my own imaginary world of Poe, ghosts and elves and things over the recent weeks and stated to get over things I'd thought I'd never will, but I don't think I will ever lose these depressive moments and emotional thoughts of mine, I can't escape them, I think they are deep inside of me and are under no control from he side of my mind.

Just had a chocolate heart and want to run around and draw on walls.

My Poe cabinet project is slow in making, but is worth the time spent so far and occupies the whole of my mind, soul and heart. I don't even have any other thoughts about anything else. Except for the Lord of the Rings. Had a break from the gloomy ghosts just before falling asleep and watched the Fellowship. Its fantastic greatness inspires me greatly and gave me around 800 of different ideas and unrelated visuals about various things. I'd love to have a wall of LOTR in my bedroom with a projection of the film ceiling height running for an hour every time before I go to sleep.

The Cabinet of Poe = A cabinet of curiosities of the world of Edgar A Poe works.

I'm finally settled with all the visuals and have the final image of the space in my head what is incredibly inspiring and feeeels goood. Need to do a little bit more reading on key visuals and crack on non-stop drawing.
I'm really happy with the topic I chose in the first stage and now and looking through the sketchbooks and workbooks from the previous hand-ins I can see the line of the concepts that goes through all the work I have been doing since last spring. One thing collect many other things and connects them to the next step and so on.
I also had an idea of creating 100 cards with small scale illustrations to put the all together in the mural but let them exist as separate illustration as well. So I have to do 3 a day.
To get on with this mission easier, gunna post updates here. I promise, let all the spirits of spring nights help me in this.