He just mesmerises me with the way he talks and makes comments and his reactions to things are pretty enchanting.

a very beautiful purple dream.

So, I'm not sure if I had ever seen dreams like that, and yesterday it was a whole film, a ghost film, a whole ghost film very visually beautiful and aesthetically pleasant.
Last night I got back home and was feeling incredibly out of space and couldn't draw or work on my dissertation so I looked at some picture books, then watched some short films and then switched off on my bed.
And when I woke up in the middle of the night, I could perfectly remember the dream I'd just seen, and I can still remember it now (I was terribly afraid I wouldn't).
So, there was a castle. I did not see it from the outside but been to many rooms inside and experienced them in detail.
It had that room I used to see a lot in my dreams in May and June last year, a room somewhere in the cellar areas of a dark gloomy building, with silver dust and spiderweb patterns all over the place, dripping water and somebody coming up the stairs just in front of me up in the darkness of the stairs, but I could never see them properly. I can remember it properly even this very evening and although I haven't seen this room for a while, I saw it last night but this time with some more to it, with the whole castle.
(to be honest, when I woke up, I was incredibly overwhelmed by everything I had seen, but I don't think I can remember all the details now)
The rooms and halls and corridors in the castle had a touch of time to them, the interior was very intricate and highly different and weird, it had mirrors, a lot of stairs, beautiful wallpaper, the colour palette mostly silver, blue, dark navy, black, some red, and greyish blue. The creatures I was around but they couldn't see me were some kind of ghosts, I could see though them, but feel them and hear them talking, the weren't walking on the ground, more like floating in a way, and the most impressive thing was they would have some kind of purple mist, a cloud of purple dust around them, this aura of them was more visible and rememberable than their own matter itself. A man had dark curly hair, shoulder length and the lady, can't remember her face properly, the hair had a tint of dark gold and she was wearing glowing early victorian with some Elizabethan jewelry details clothes and had tattoos on her arms.
I can't recall what were their conversations or plans like, the visual part was the strongest.

under the table.

this is one of the entries about the visual memories of the day.
I was trying to make the cables and other things obey to me under my desk, and Maya walked into the room and asked me if I was lost under my table. this made me generate two illustrated images and a little bit of moving image.
gotta work on it, and get back to this.

LED ghost.

Today was Sunday and Sundays are fun. Also there were a couple of wicked moments in my life earlier during the day and late evening.
While on the bus from work I had the whole and complete and looking awesome the idea about the stuff I want to do for my FinalMajorProject. It involves hell of a lot of illustration, some 3d animation and interactivity bits. The only thing I can share in words is that there gunna be an LED ghost. Also some windows, and dragons. *<*

Cardinal Red

Spent 3-books-about-decadence-and-sexual-anarchy time in the hospital today. At least did some reading on ContextualStudies. And gave away a lot of my dear blood again, like twice. It's pretty painful and although they always warm you it is going to be a scratch feeling, it hurts. I like the colour very very much though, when I look at the small tubes filled with my fresh blood, they just glow with this cardinal red shine. Cardinal Red. Very visually pleasant procedure it was.

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*blue blood - white background and intricate details. in the hospital today my arm would go blue time to time. blood is cardinal -crimson red and blue at the same time. blood is amazing. remember when we studied all the types and circles the human blood makes and it was a mind-blowing system.
*ephemeral. it's a beautiful word and appears highly visual in my head. I was watching spiderman online earlier and it made me think how some things are ephemeral and ghost like (just Julian Wolfreys described the non-material ephemerality of media in his victorian ghosts and hauntings book today). also made me think how letting things go and change is an inevitable matter and element of our life, the more highly-technological our existence gets, the more ephemeral things there are around us and the more things we can't make stay longer. both in emotional and technological ways.

An Illustrated Dictionary of Fantasy Realms.

So, developing the illustrated dictionary idea further on, I'be come out with the title, what would be "An Illustrated Dictionary of Fantasy Realms". I also had an idea naming it "An Illustrated Dictionary of the Imaginary Neighbourhood", but I won't.
It's about a week left, and I have, have to
* do my dissertation, ye, nothing will take me away from it.Nothing in the known universe.
*finish the investigation research and put it into nice body of applied design.
*send of the initial solutions for the book cover freelance work (the deadline is almost over).

And, as soon as I'll be over this all,
*send of the prints to the BoxBird gallery (30th);
*send the storyboards to the M band;
*work on some arduino processing stuffff;
*restart the book cover for Anna Veronica.
#watch a lot of films and go to sleep some time.

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It's not snowing at all but university is closed anyway, what is ridiculous.
I feel incredibly lost about my current university project, my last tutorial absolutely messed up the whole idea I had been working before that.
So I'm doing my design investigation on the illustrated world of imagination and character development and I have quite a few interviews already done and finished and my initial idea was to create illustrations based on the impressions from the interviews, but now since its all not about the final execution but about the research itself, I'm losing my mind about what I should do.
But I had another "bright" idea earlier today and its an "Illustrated Dictionary of Imagination, Character Development and Research Processes within Worlds of Illustrators". It looks great in my head, and it might work.
Still not sure how well designed job they expect as at the end of the whole thing.

Brian Eno is calming me down though.
And this darkness too.

A Mirror Illustration finished!

a film monitor!

Yesterday going through the stuff I store in the dark cupboard with winter clothes, I found a monitor I hadn't used for ages, so I connected it to my laptop and now I've got a monitor for films, so when I draw or paint, or animate or edit, I can watch films with the left side of my eyes, central focuses on the laptop screen and right looks in the window. that all sounded a little bit weird.

This is great! very emotional too. I love the movement, the sounds, the sceneries, the colours, the style.

A paper trimmer and a cardboard monster.

I have to confess that I really like The Works shops since I can go there and buy loads of different books-pens-paper related stuff without spending a lot and get anything I want and anything I don't even need. Like today I went there and got some amazing markers (dot-making process should be done less painful and more productive with their help, sometimes staedler fine line pens are too fine-liney), a craft glue, some super glue, some canvases, some paper, and a paper trimmer!! Now I have a paper trimmer at home! For both paper AND cardboard.

Also was pretty closed to be fired at work today - apparently, drawing is not what shop assistants are expected to be doing. Didn't know that.

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What I would wear on a second date with him.